[be still please]

i realized today that there are people in the world who i couldn't seduce with the judicious application of portastatic songs. i even lust after at least one of them! this was a very startling and upsetting realization to have on the bus whilst sitting next to a rather aromatic undergrad, internets. WHAT DO YOU MEAN, NOT EVERYONE THINKS MAC MCCAUGHAN IS ROMANTIC. >:(


then i listened to mandy moore for a while, so i suppose i can't really talk. my favorite thing about her marriage to ryan adams is that, man, she's going to make a really bitter amazing break-up album when that whole thing collapses. and i love mandy moore way more than i love ryan adams, no lie. so i will be sorry for her pain but i am also looking forward to hearing mandy moore's personal version of "don't use my broken heart".

[i got songs that make you cry]

sometimes you reach a point where you stop telling the stories because they don't make sense outside of the moment, jokes about bowls of pad thai and AWEsome and think sexy and tom selleck naked, because you look up and you realize that you're happier to be in the moment than you would be telling the stories about the moment that just passed.


in other news, some boys i love have recently, unprompted, taken to calling me a nickname i haven't heard from anyone since before The Ex and i split up. it's a nickname i associate strongly with a particular set of guys i went to college with, and it's sort of startling but mostly just comforting to hear it from the mouths of other people, unconnected people, new people who love me how i am now.